Denise's Book Reviews and Life Observations

Unanswered Prayers

2011-02-03T12:00:00.000-08:00

Not an orginal title, but better than my first choice: The Prince With A Toad's Heart.

I worked as a church secretary for a few years after my divorce. The pay was minimal, but my daughters attended the daycare free of charge. I was a brand-new Christian, healing from the wounds of my divorce. A friend aptly described it as God ripping out the faulty foundation and laying a new, solid foundation. I was trying to figure out who I was, where I belonged, and what He wanted me to do with my life. I was also going through a country music phase, and my favorite artist was Garth Brooks.

It was in the day care that I met "Lou". He was a single father whose youngest daughter was enrolled in the after school program of the day care. He was so handsome, charming, successful, established, dressed well, and smelled wonderful. His daughter was the same age and in the same grade as one of my daughters, and they quickly became friends. The girls spent much of their free time together, which meant that Lou and I interacted often. We developed a friendship separate from the girls. I was strongly attracted to Lou, but put off by his series of short-term romances. He occasionally sought my opinion when a relationship began, and sometimes wanted consolation when a relationship ended. There was always a strong physical attraction, but I mistakenly thought I was immune to his charms.

A few years passed. My life was in upheaval after a series of unfortunate events. I was more vulnerable than I wanted to admit. Lou had just been dumped after another whirlwind courtship and engagement. He became a frequent visitor to my office and called me often at home. He was always flirtatious, but it seemed as if he was focusing all his attentions on me. I was flattered, and I fell for it. He was amazingly attentive, said all the right things. While shopping at a store, I commented on a coffee mug I liked. The next day he delivered the coffee mug to me, beautifully packaged. He knew that I liked Garth Brooks. For Valentine's Day, he presented me with two tickets to see Garth Brooks in concert. He told me he was falling for me, and wanted to take our friendship to the next level. His affection and attention were intoxicating, and I deluded myself with thinking that he really cared about me. I was sure that our romance would be different. I ignored all the inner (and outer) warnings. My close friends were concerned, and tried to warn me that I was headed for a heartbreak.

The night of the concert was another magical evening with Lou. The concert was in a neighboring state and ended late. Instead of driving home, he suggested we stay at a hotel and drive home in the morning. Despite the alarms going off in my head, I agreed. That's all I will say about that.

The next morning we left the hotel and began the two hour drive home. I sensed a shift in his personality, a coldness. He quickly began to distance himself emotionally from me, and I saw a most unpleasant side of his personality that I had never seen before. It was as if he was finally free to be who he really was, and it was quite ugly. It was as if my prince was showing me he really had a toad's heart. I was shocked, but more than that, I was ashamed of myself. I had dramatically lowered my standards and allowed myself to believe the lies. I knew better! I had seen this dude in action! I felt as if I had no one but myself to blame. He dropped me off at my apartment, and I did not hear from him again for weeks.

"If someone shows you who they are, believe them the first time." - Maya Angelou

When he did call, he asked me to meet him for dinner. His charming facade was back, but I was no longer under his spell. He told me he really cared for me, but he was still in pain over the loss of his prior relationship, and therefore not ready to begin a new one with me. I had already determined that I would never open my heart to this creep again. I played along, and told him I completely understood. I was seething with anger, but I never let it show. I could tell he was confused by my response, and even tried to act as if he was conflicted over his decision. He made several attempts at physical affection, but I was not having it. I told him that would not be fair to either one of us. It was as if the blinders were off, and I could see him clearly. I think he wanted me to react differently, and didn't know how to handle it when I didn't. I had allowed myself to care, to love, and I was now heartbroken. I was also ashamed and embarrassed that I had so freely lowered my standards and abandoned my beliefs for this guy. It took time to heal from those wounds. Our daughters were still friends, so there were sleepovers, concerts, etc. But after we moved away, the girls lost touch, and so did we.

Now to the reason I am posting this:

I saw him two days ago at the grocery store. I was shocked to see how dramatically he had changed. He is not the same attractive, handsome, charming guy. He has a grizzled appearance. There are bags and dark circles under his eyes, and he has a haunted, hollow look in his eyes. I don't know if I would have recognized him. It wasn't until he spoke that I realized who he was. I said hello, and kept walking. The past fourteen years have not been kind to him. What happened? It's as if his outer self has caught up with what was already inside. The transformation from prince to toad is now complete.

I have thought of this encounter often over the past couple of days. I still love Garth Brooks' music, and the song "Unanswered Prayers" is appropriate for this situation. At the time, I thought that Lou was the perfect guy, ideal for me. Wow. Thank You, Lord. You always know what You are doing.

The title "Unanswered Prayers" is not entirely correct. God always answers prayers. Sometimes He says no. I love it when God shows me why He answers "NO". Thanks again for Your perfect will, and for giving me the gift of perspective.

Perspective

2011-02-02T00:47:00.000-08:00

(I began this entry in November 2009, and never published it until now. Just writing it was therapeutic. Much has changed since this was written. It's still an incomplete entry, but for me an interesting snapshot from that difficult time.)

This is not a review of a book titled perspective. This is about perspective itself. I am going to write what is in my heart and not worry about what grammatical errors I am making.

This year has been one of the best and worst years of my life. Best, without a doubt, because I still have my Lauren girl. God in His infinite mercy spared her life. That outshines any of the bad. The hours, days, weeks of pain and uncertainty were so worth it to have her here. Instead of mourning her loss, I can celebrate the gift of her life.

Then, what at the time was the worst a couple of months ago, Lauren made the decision to stay with my parents while she is healing. This decision sent me reeling, dashed my tentative hopes at further reconciliation. For reasons I will never understand, my parents have chosen to view me in an unfavorable light, and speak the most horrible things of me to anyone who will listen. I am the oldest of three children. One brother is a prescription drug addict and robs my parents blind, and the other committed suicide in 1996. I thought, that they might appreciate me a bit more, being the only one with a semi-clear head on my shoulders. Boy was I wrong. My parents, or should I say my mom have always been critical of my choices in life, my weight, my parenting skills, you name it. My mom talks trash about me, but is nice to my face. My father, who I love and adore, nitpicks and complains about me to my face. At least he is consistent.

This is nothing new, I guess I have just learned to live with it all these years. I have always been passive, taking what others dish out, rarely standing up for myself. I had never stood up to my parents until this past year. One of my biggest regrets in life is not standing up when Lauren was younger. I allowed my parents to overrule my authority as Lauren's mother. As a result, when she was a teenager, making bad choices, I was not her final authority. She could run to them, and they would support her, in more ways than one. When she was caught with drugs at school, my husband and I went through the legal pains, faced the judge. We grounded her and tried to get her help. They bought her a new car. They tell everyone that they singlehandedly raised her. That is a lie. If they did anything, they singlehandedly sabotaged her upbringing. And I passively stood by and let it happen. I felt it would be disrespectful as their daughter, and part of me believed their lies. As the years have passed, my parents have grown more bitter and cold toward me.

I found myself in a deep, dark pit when Lauren announced that she would be living in my parents' house while she is in limbo. I was angry at Lauren, angry at my parents, and angry with God. I was REALLY angry with God. I thought that Lauren's accident and recovery was God's way of redeeming this whole situation. By now Lauren is a single mom of two young girls, and has made mistakes and bad decisions of her own. As her mom, I have prayed for her, loved her as imperfectly as I can, and hoped for the best.

When she chose to live with them rather than me, I felt that rejection all over again. I wanted to give up. The fight was knocked out of me. Because of the severity of Lauren's injuries, I was advised to seek legal guardianship over Lauren's estate. This was to protect Lauren. I found that I was ridiculed by my mother for trying to do the right thing! I also had to stand up for Lauren while she was in a coma and deny my brother and his family visitation. I had very good reasons for not allowing them to be near Lauren. She was burned on over 40% of her body and had open wounds. Those of us who were allowed in the room had to follow strict guidelines that included wearing gloves, gowns, and sometimes masks. Her hospital room was no place for someone that has a parasitic infestation. Enough said.

Instead of understanding, I received more criticism. My mother was furious, and accused me of being controlling and manipulative, and tried to get me to back down. Not this time. I couldn't believe that she would place my brother's feelings ahead of Lauren's welfare.

Anyway, back to the pit. I visualized my parents standing over that pit, dancing around like a boxer that has scored a knockout over his opponent. I had fallen, and didn't know how to get up OR out.

Offworld by Robin Parrish

2011-02-02T00:45:00.000-08:00

Offworld

written by Robin Parrish

Published by Bethany House Publishers, a division of Baker Publishing Group

ISBN: 978-0-7642-0606-1

This will be the least professional of all my reviews. I borrowed this book from the library. I was skeptical at first, as I am not a science fiction fan. BUT, I found that I could not put this book down until I had read the last page.

I found the beginning of this review in my unpublished drafts. I have slept many nights and read many other books since finishing Offworld. All I can tell you now is that I thoroughly enjoyed this book, that it was in my top ten of 2010. The book follows a group of astronauts returning from a space mission to earth, only to find that home is not the same. Where is everybody? What happened? Their new mission: survival while searching for the answers.

It really is the most wonderful time of the year!

2010-11-16T14:38:00.000-08:00

I first want to apologize for the lack of activity on this blog. I have read many books this year, so I am without an excuse! I am making a promise (to myself) to blog more often.

I absolutely love the months of September, October, November and December. I love the rich, beautiful fall colors, the changing leaves, fall decorations, and most of all....THANKSGIVING! Thanksgiving is by far my FAVORITE holiday. I love and appreciate what Christmas stands for, but I am so put off by all the commercialism. I still love all the holiday foods, drinks, and most of all, Jesus. He is the reason we celebrate Christmas!

The Long Way Home, The Homelanders Book Two by Andrew Klavan

2010-01-20T08:43:00.000-08:00

The Long Way Home

The Homelanders Book Two

Written by Andrew Klavan

Published by Thomas Nelson Publishers

ISBN: 978-1-59554-713-2

I am a proud reviewer for the newly titled BookSneeze.com. Thomas Nelson Publishers has graciously provided me with a complimentary copy of this book to review.

Book Two begins where Book One (The Last Thing I Remember) ends. Charlie West is a typical eighteen year old who loves God, his friends, his family, karate, and is interested in a girl named Beth. He has awakened to discover that not only has he lost an entire year of his life, he is a convicted killer (of his best friend), a prison escapee, and has escaped terrorists who want him dead. In Book One, Charlie grapples with who he is and what has he done, or not done. Book Two helps the reader with more pieces of the puzzle. Both Charlie and the reader get answers, and more questions.

It begins with a struggle with a vicious assassin in a public library, and a subsequent escape from a group of thugs. Charlie then escapes an exciting police chase and forms a plan to return to his hometown for answers. He forms a plan to hide out in an abandoned house thought to be haunted. It is here where his friends come to his aid. They want to help him learn the truth, who really killed his friend Alex. I enjoyed the dialogue between Charlie, Josh, Rick, Miler, and Beth. They supply him with what he needs to survive as well as gift him with their loyalty and support. Charlie also discovers that he and Beth were involved romantically and have a strong romantic connection. Little by little, pieces of the puzzle are revealed in this book. His friends help him to fill in the blanks in his memory. They also do a little investigating for him and try to keep him safe. I enjoyed the chapter with Josh's investigation, but I won't reveal anything more! :)

In his quest for the truth, Charlie encounters his mentor and karate instructor, Sensei Mike. He had learned that Alex was supposed to have met up with Mike the evening he was murdered. He wanted answers, and wasn't sure if he could trust his sensei. After an action-packed scene, he has his answer, and much more.

By the end of the book Charlie has still not regained his memory, but he has a stronger sense of who he is and who his true friends are. He also has more pieces of the puzzle. But, like the ending of Book One, Book Two ends with a struggle, and Charlie once more on the run. I look forward to reading Book Three, The Truth of the Matter, due for release in November 2010.

I bought the first book, The Last Thing I Remember, not realizing that it was categorized under Juvenile Fiction. My teenage daughter surprised me by reading it in one afternoon. She is not usually a reader, much less a fast reader. She cannot wait to read Book Two. Okay, Paige, your wait is over.

http://www.thomasnelson.com/consumer/product_detail.asp?sku=1595547134&title=The_Homelanders_#2__:_The_Long_Way_Home

http://www.christianbook.com/long-way-home-homelanders/andrew-klavan/9781595547132/pd/547132?item_code=WW&netp_id=638996&event=ESRCN&view=details

Who Do I Talk To? by Neta Jackson

2010-01-08T11:08:00.000-08:00

who do i talk to? a Yada Yada House of Hope Novel

Book 2

written by Neta Jackson

published by Thomas Nelson Publishers

ISBN: 978-1-59544-524-4

http://www.christianbook.com/do-talk-yada-house-hope/neta-jackson/9781595545244/pd/545244?item_code=WW&netp_id=607719&event=ESRCN&view=details

Pure pleasure. I read this book for ME! I borrowed the book from the library. I have read all the YadaYada books, and just love the characters. They feel like old friends. I was not going to review this, but since I am still thinking about the book several days after I finished reading it, how could I not review it?

The book begins where the first books ends. (of course) Gabby Fairbanks returns to the Chicago penthouse she shares with a husband, two sons, her elderly mother, and her mother's dog to find the locks have changed, and her belongings are packed and waiting for her in the lobby. Her husband, Phillip, has cruely kicked her out, cancelled all her credit cards, and taken her sons out of state. Gabby, her mother, and Dandy the dog become residents of Manna House, the womans' homeless shelter where Gabby is employed.

I don't want to go through all the events and adventures in the book, as I wouldn't want to spoil it for anyone. If you loved the Yada Yada series, you will LOVE this book! So wonderful to get to know Gabby and watch her grow and mature. It seems a no-brainer that when troubles come, who else do we talk to, but the Lord? But I appreciate how Neta carefully and gently drew Gabby toward God as the one to turn to when there seems to be no one else. It was delightful to watch her relationships with others, both believers and non-believers, develop. I laughed and cried with Gabby through this novel. It was also great to catch up with some of the Yada Yada characters, and get to know the new characters. I can't wait to read the next novel in the series, Who Do I Lean On?!

Finding Purpose Beyond our Pain by Paul Meier, MD and David Henderson, MD

2010-01-06T23:09:00.000-08:00

Finding Purpose Beyond Our Pain -

Uncover the hidden potential in life's most common struggles

Written by Paul Meier, MD and David L. Henderson, MD

Published by Thomas Nelson Publishers

ISBN: 978-0-7852-2922-3

http://www.christianbook.com/Christian/Books/product?item_no=229220&item_code=WW&netp_id=613953&event=ESRCN&view=details

In compliance with new FTC regulations, I am disclosing that I received a complimentary copy of this book from Thomas Nelson Publishers. I am a proud and grateful member of the Thomas Nelson Book Review Bloggers.

http://www.brb.thomasnelson.com/

When I requested to review this book from the Thomas Nelson Book Review Bloggers website, I thought this would be an easy review. I thought of myself as mostly recovered from the pain my life experiences had caused. My oldest daughter was in a rehabilitation hospital after almost losing her life in a motorcycle accident that claimed the life of her boyfriend. She lost her left leg and was burned over forty percent of her body. But hey, she survived. No problem, I can review this book!

I then went through yet another series of events that effectively knocked me in the pit. I could not see my way out, period. I did not understand why I was going through these things after I had already been through so much! I was angry with God. Why? Yet in all of this, I begged God to give me perspective. In fact, I believe that short prayer is on this blogsite.

I then received this book in the mail.

I didn't see it at first, but in going through the book, reading a few chapters here and there, I began to see God working through my pain and grief. I read through the practical application points at the end of the sections that I felt related to my experiences. I then took time to journal the my answers to the questions also located at the end of the section, building a foundation of the truth found in God's Word concerning my situation.

I was gaining perspective. My emotional wounds were beginning to heal. I rejoiced in the smallest of victories and realized that God is indeed our refuge and strength, a very present help in times of trouble. I know, that is in the Psalms. Right now I just cannot remember the exact chapter and verse!

I don't normally conduct my book reviews this way. I also USUALLY stick to my passion: Christian Fiction. Anything else is...well....work. (HA)

At this point I will attempt to be a bit more professional. Drs Meier and Henderson divided the book into seven sections. Each section expounds on one of the seven most common life challenges as identified by Drs Meier and Henderson. They are:

1) Injustice

2) Rejection

3) Loneliness

4) Loss

5) Discipline

6) Failure

7) Death

As I said before, at the end of each section there are a few pages that contain practical application points to consider, as well as questions to apply what you have just learned to your own situation.

I also enjoyed the stories in each chapter. While the doctors point the reader back to God's truth, they are never preachy or condescending.

I believe this book should be on the shelves of every pastor and Christian counselor. I was not expecting this book to have such an impact on my own life.

I apologize again for the lack of professionalism. While I deliberately left out the details of my situation (other than my daughter) I wanted to explain the personal impact this book had on my situation.

The Power of One Thing by Randy Carlson

2010-01-03T20:04:00.000-08:00

The Power of One Thing - How to Intentionally Change Your Life

written by Dr. Randy Carlson

Published by Tyndale House Publishers

ISBN: 978-0-8423-8222-9

http://www.christianbook.com/Christian/Books/product?item_no=382229&item_code=WW&netp_id=627248&event=ESRCN&view=details

In compliance with new FTC regulations, I am disclosing that I received a complimentary copy of this book from Tyndale House Publishers.

January 3rd is an accidental, but ideal time to review this book. It is so easy to become overwhelmed by our New Year's resolutions. Where do we start? That is where The Power of One Thing comes in!

Information + Insight + Action = Intentional Living

Information represents the facts of your situation. Insight comes after prayerfully thinking through the problem. Action is the "one thing" to commit to do to improve the situation. This is a neat formula to tackle any problem. Reminds me of the saying "How does a mice eat an elephant? One bite at a time."

The Power of One Thing is in two parts:

Part One: You Are Only "One Thing" Away from a Better Life

Part Two: It's Time to Start - Change Your Life One Thing at a Time

Part One focuses on gathering the information and identifying the steps needed to bring about change. More precisely, that "one thing" you can begin to do or stop doing to bring about the change you desire. The first "insight" I gained was what it means to live intentionally. Next was the confirmation that it IS important to know yourself, how you are wired as well as your strengths and weaknesses. What pushes your buttons? What motivates you? It is equally important to get to know the important people in your life. Do you know their thoughts, dreams, strengths, weaknesses? What motivates the ones you love? Last but never least is to know God, and understand His plans for your life. You can do this by spending time in His presence, and getting to know Him through His Word. (my interpretation)

Part Two is the "action" section. In each chapter, Dr. Carlson presents nine roadblocks to living an intentional life: your thinking, your attitude, your emotions, your words, the use of your time, your friends, your clutter, the questions you ask and the decisions you make. Each chapter gives practical advice and applications to implement the "one thing" you can do to begin change in your life.

There is also a Discussion Guide available online http://www.tyndale.com/resources/details.asp?isbn=978-0-8423-8222-9 . I found the Discussion Guide a valuable tool, and look forward to further study.

I would recommend this book to anyone desiring a life change, but not sure where to start.

The Unfinished Gift by Dan Walsh

2009-12-11T08:38:00.000-08:00

The Unfinished Gift

written by Dan Walsh

Published by Revell, a division of Baker Publishing Group

ISBN: 9780800719241

http://www.revellbooks.com/ME2/Audiences/dirmod.asp?sid=0477683E4046471488BD7BAC8DCFB004&nm=&type=PubCom&mod=PubComProductCatalog&mid=BF1316AF9E334B7BA1C33CB61CF48A4E&tier=3&id=225E28E53CC94FB9A8DEB69592618AD5

http://www.christianbook.com/unfinished-gift-dan-walsh/9780800719241/pd/719241?item_code=WW&netp_id=625966&event=ESRCN&view=details

I just finished reading the book, The Unfinished Gift, by Dan Walsh. I am reviewing this book on my own. I borrowed this book from our local library.

The story begins a week before Christmas in 1943. Seven year-old Patrick Collins has just lost his mother in an automobile accident. His father, Shawn, is a fighter pilot, serving his country in the war overseas. Patrick is brought to stay with his grandfather, Ian Collins, until his father is notified and returns from Europe. Katherine Townsend is the social worker assigned to Patrick's case. Although she is trained to be objective, she finds her heart warming to the young Patrick. Patrick has never met his grandfather due to a falling out between Shawn and Ian Collins years before Patrick's birth. Ian is bitter and blames Patrick's mother for coming between father and son. He sees Patrick as an inconvenience, and is cold and unfeeling toward him. Ian is a widower, and made a deathbed promise to her that he would reconcile with their son. However, he is stubborn, and has become comfortably numb in his bitter state.

While searching for Christmas decorations in the attic, Patrick finds an unfinished, yet beautifully carved wooden soldier. He is scolded by his grandfather and warned the object is off limits to him. The wooden soldier becomes a desire of little Patrick's heart, right next to seeing his father again and leaving his grandfather's cold and unloving home. Patrick does find comfort and nurturing from the next door neighbor, Mrs. Fortini, and his caseworker, Miss Townsend. Katherine knows she is risking her job by getting emotionally involved, but she is willing to risk it for this little boy who has captured her heart.

Then, terrible news from overseas rattles both Katherine and Ian. Ian, in a quest to know his son, reads Shawn's letters to his wife. He learns that all was not as he had always thought, and is confronted with his own stubbornness. His heart begins to thaw, and he wants to make things right with his grandson.

He then learns that Patrick has run away from his home, right in the middle of a blizzard. Desperate to find him, he offers a substantial reward. Katherine, who has come to the Collins' home to check on Patrick's welfare, bands together with Ian and Mrs. Fortini in an effort to bring Patrick safely home.

I don't think I should share any more details, except to say that the remainder of the story is beautifully written, and touched my heart. I don't want to be a "plot spoiler", even if I am not sure exactly what that means! :) I felt the book was wrapped up well, and enjoyed the addition and portrayal of Ezra Jeffries and his family. I would love to see how they prospered after these events. I also felt that this story is not over. I would love to see more of Katherine Townsend's story, and to see her find happiness. This is going to be one of my new Christmas favorites! Be sure to have tissues nearby. You WILL need them!

Review of Gone to Green

2009-11-23T21:16:00.000-08:00

Title: Gone to Green
Author: Judy Christie
Published by Abingdon Press
ISBN: 978-1-4267-0024-8

http://www.christianbook.com/gone-green-judy-christie/9781426700248/pd/700248?item_code=WW&netp_id=621010&event=ESRCN&view=details

http://abingdonpress.com/forms/fiction.aspx?pid=3561

I am reviewing this book on my own. I borrowed a copy of this book from my local library. I am reviewing this for my own benefit.
First, I want to say that I really enjoyed this book. I thought the author did a wonderful job! The characters were well-developed, and the storyline fascinating.

Lois Barker is an aspiring reporter for a large midwestern paper. She is preparing for a promotion when she learns she has inherited ownership of a small town paper in Green, Louisiana. Her beloved friend and former co-worker, Ed, has passed away and left her with his dream. She decides to accept the challenge and moves to Green to take ownership. The stipulation is that she has to stay a year before she can sell.

She finds that living in a small town is rarely dull, and the people of this small town are multi-faceted. Some good, some not so good. She is dismayed to learn that prejudice and discrimination still exist, and works through relationships she has developed to try to break through the racism, and help make Green a better place to live. As the reader, I began to fall in love with these people, and found myself mentally chastising Lois when she decides to sell the paper at the one-year mark.

I know I am not doing this story justice! I cannot wait to read more of both Lois and the people of Green, Louisiana.

Thirsty

2009-11-10T04:57:00.000-08:00

Book Title: Thirsty
Author: Tracey Bateman
Published by Waterbrook Press
ISBN: 978-0-307-45715-8

First of all, I am reviewing this book on my own. I have not received payment to review this book, nor have I received a free copy to review. I borrowed this book from our local library.

Thirsty grabbed me by the throat from the beginning chapter. (Pardon the pun!) I would have passed on reading this book, since it has a vampiric theme, but I have enjoyed Tracey Bateman's other works, and trusted I would not be disappointed. And I am not.

Thirsty tells the story of Nina Hunter, a recovering alcoholic who moves back to her hometown after running away seventeen years earlier. Due to years of living in the throes of alcoholism, she is left to start over without her marriage, custody of her children, and her veterinary practice. She returns to Abbey Hill, Missouri to wait tables at the local cafe and live with her sister, Jill, the local sheriff after a stint in rehab. Nina brings her angry and conflicted teenage daughter, Meg, with her to spend a week with her, hoping for reconciliation. Upon their arrival, they learn of a murder that is similar to a rash of ritualistic killings of animals in the area. The small town is left to wonder what is really going on...are these killings the work of satanists, witches, or...some other supernatural beings?

I appreciated the fluctuation between explaining Nina's childhood, right up to her leaving town, the present, Hunt's point of view, Meg's point of view, and lastly, Jill's mysterious and handsome neighbor, Marcus. Who and/or what is he? I found the story line fascinating! Having experience dealing with and loving someone with an addictive personality, this book gave me a new understanding of what my loved one experiences. I loved the way the author, Tracey, paralleled alcohol addiction with a vampire's bloodlust. Interesting.

There were many twists and turns to this plot that I will not address due to my current fatigue, but are well done.

I WILL recommend Thirsty to anyone who asks. Well done. Not many books keep me awake all night! I think a nap is in order this morning!!!!

Intervention by Terri Blackstock

2009-11-06T08:58:00.000-08:00

Book Title: INTERVENTION

Author: Terri Blackstock
Publisher: Zondervan
ISBN: 978-0-310-32198-9

I want to state that I am reviewing this book on my own. I have not been paid to review this book. I have not received a free copy from anyone. I borrowed this book from our local library.

The book begins with a mother, Barbara Covington, staging an intervention for her 18 year-old daughter Emily. Barbara is a 43 year-old widowed mother of two children, Emily, and 14 year-old Lance. She takes out a second mortgage to pay the exhorbitant fee the rehabilitation clinic requires. She also pays an extra fee to have an interventionist from the clinic, Trish Massey, travel to their hometown, lead the intervention, and accompany Emily to the clinic.
Something goes terribly wrong once the pair are in Atlanta. Trish is found murdered in her car in the airport garage, Emily is missing, and considered the main suspect in Trish's murder. Barbara and Lance travel to Atlanta, desperate to find Emily and the answers to this mystery. Barbara develops a rapport with the lead detective, Kent Harlan. He begins to doubt the initial suspicion that Emily murdered Trish to hold on to her drug addiction, and begins to listen to and work with Barbara and Lance.
This book was a typical Terri Blackstock plot, full of action, twists and suspense. This is by far my favorite, however, because I strongly sensed her heart was in this book. After reading the Note from the Author at the end, I was correct. She has experienced the pain, frustration and heartbreak of having a child in the throes of addiction. I strongly identified with Barbara. In fact, she seems so real to me that I would love to read a follow-up on her life! I guess that is called a sequel. :)

What I am currently reading....

2009-11-04T17:10:00.000-08:00

The past few weeks have been so chaotic I have been unable to read OR review. I started reading Intervention by Terri Blackstock this morning. I borrowed Intervention from the library. Terri's books are always a great read. I will review when I am finished.

I also wanted to say "hi" to my friends...I found your blogs! (YAY!)

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2009-11-04T16:01:00.000-08:00

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Life's Disappointments

2009-11-02T21:28:00.000-08:00

I desperately want to gain perspective on the specific disappointments and failures of the past couple of weeks. I fear if I cannot, the weight will crush me.

What has happened to society?

2009-10-22T10:04:00.000-07:00

As I write this, safely ensconced in my home, I am still physically shaking from the event that transpired about thirty minutes ago.

My son and I were returning home from a trip to the library. Driving west on Creasy/Brady Lane, I noticed a young lady in a navy blue sedan wedge her car snugly behind mine. She proceeded to travel dangerously close to my back bumper. I was a bit confused, as the stretch of road we were on had another lane to our right. There was no one in that lane. I glanced at my speedometer. I was surprised to see that I was going 45. The speed limit is 35. I would usually get upset and increase my speed to create a distance between my car and the tailgater. I did not do that this time. I decided that if she was in such a hurry, she could EASILY pass me. She did not. We approached the intersection of Creasy/Brady Ln and Concord Road. I put on my left turn signal and braked, waiting for the oncoming traffic to pass so that I could safely turn left. The light turned yellow. Since I was already "out in the middle", I decided to make my turn. This is when a young man in a navy blue pickup heading east on Brady decided to gun it. He was already driving at a high rate of speed, and had come up on the intersection rather quickly. I saw him and stopped, but not before he honked at me as he passed, yelling, honking and waving his middle finger at me. Even though I knew the light was red, I proceeded into my turn, as I was already committed. I was shocked to also realize that Miss navy blue sedan was still glued to my back bumper!

At first I was upset that this young man, a total stranger, would dare be so violent and ugly when he was the one clearly in the wrong. I wanted to turn around and chase him down, and explain to him the events of this year that have changed my life forever. Two things stopped me: the young woman still tailgating, and the sad realization that it just wouldn't matter. Besides, my son was in the back seat exclaiming that he thought he was going to have a heart attack. He was with me two weeks ago when our car was t-boned at an intersection.

I continued on to my destination, thanking the Lord for his protection. It is sad, though, that a simple drive home was jeopardized because of the rude, selfish and reckless acts of two young drivers. My husband thinks that, since our rental car is a Grand Marquis with Nevada plates, both drivers thought I was an out-of-towner and I didn't know my way around. Does it matter, though? Is this how we have raised our children? I am saddened by this.

Ruby's Slippers by Leanna Ellis

2009-10-10T06:45:00.000-07:00

Ruby's Slippers by Leanna Ellis

published by B&H Publishing Group

www.bhpublishinggroup.com/fiction/books.asp?p=9780805446982

Before I begin, I want to say that I am reviewing this book of my own free will. I did not receive an advanced copy of this book, nor have I been solicited to review this book. Its all me....

I picked up Ruby's Slippers because I had read Elvis Takes a Back Seat, by the same author, earlier this year, and found it delightful. I loved the both the characters and the story, even if I was never an Elvis fan.

I absolutely loved Ruby's Slippers! Once again, I felt the characters were rich in character and easy to love. I identified with Dottie at first, being the oldest of two sisters, and feeling like she had the obligation to look after her mother and her younger sister, Abby, in light of her father's mysterious departure when she was four years old. As a teenager and then into adulthood, she feels as if she is standing in her aspiring actress sister's larger-than-life shadow. She remains where she is comfortable, at the family farm in Kansas, even if that is not where she is content, sheltered from the outside world.

She is seriously injured when a tornado rips through her farm, leaving the farm completely destroyed, and only a small box of personal possessions. She awakens after being in a coma for three months and one week with a brain injury that takes time to heal. She learns that her sister has moved her to a rehabilitation facility in California and has put the family farm up for auction. She also discovers a pair of ruby slippers that her father, who she has not seen for thirty years, has left for her while she was in a coma.

While recovering, she meets and befriends Sophia, an older lady with a big heart, as well as an adventurous streak. They embark on a journey to find Dottie's father in Seattle, with few clues to go on.

Dottie meets her long-lost Uncle Tim, and he accompanies them on their journey. Tim offers Dottie a perspective of her family that she never before had. He tells her things about her parents she would have never known...of their youthful dreams and heartaches. The group expands to four when Sophia meets up with her son Leo. Leo has been living in a cabin in the woods, tucked away from society, nursing emotional wounds inflicted by a trusted associate.

The group encounter adventures on the way to Seattle, but are determined not to give up.

Dottie finds herself drawn to the wild but big-hearted Leo, and it seems he is drawn to her as well.

The group finally arrives at their destination: the home of Dottie's father. She is deeply disappointed to be turned away at the gate, being given the request to return only when she has Abby with her.

I am not going to give any more details, but I found the conclusion immensely satisfying. While I found myself wishing Abby would get her comeuppance, I was delighted to see that Dottie had come to terms with the pain and loss of her past, and realized that she had always had the best Father ever, and feeling confident in His love, was able to make a sacrifice that surprised and at first dismayed me. I understood why she made the sacrifice, though, and was able to take away a lesson of my own.

To anyone who reads this review, if anyone at all, please forgive me for rambling. I wanted to capture the feelings and lesson I learned from reading this book. In many ways I am like Dottie, feeling like the plain invisible one in a family that demands to be seen and heard, and seeking comfort hiding from the world. The lesson I took away from this book is this: all of us as human beings are broken and fragile creatures. We will be hurt and disappointed, and we will hurt and disappoint others. Our Heavenly Father will never let us down. Sometimes the lessons we learn will hurt, and our loved ones will never live up to expectations. Our Father calls us to love, and in doing so, we are healed and restored. Also, sometimes family can be the ones who love you and accept you for who you are when your own family does not or can not.

I cannot say enough about this book. I enjoyed it immensely, and I am going on a quest to find Lookin' Back Texas, another of Leanna Ellis' books. I have a feeling I will again be delighted, entertained, and glean another of His nuggets. I love reading fiction that brings me closer to Him!

Rose House by Tina Ann Forkner

2009-10-06T06:49:00.000-07:00

My Review of the Rose House, by Tina Ann Forkner

published by Waterbrook Press

www.waterbrookmultnomah.com/catalog.php?isbn=9781400073597

I just wanted to add that I am reviewing this book on my own. I did not receive a free copy from anyone!

I couldn't wait to read this book, having loved the first book, Ruby Among Us, and the characters within the book.

Rose House is the story of Lillian. When the story begins, she is grappling with the overwhelming grief of losing her husband and two children in a suspicious accident. She is also dealing with the pain of secrets and betrayal involving her sister and her husband. She visits the Rose House in the midst of her grief, and is unknowingly captured in a portrait painted by a local landscape artist, Truman. She flees from La Roseda, cutting her vacation short, when she suspects someone is stalking her.

Four years later, she is still grieving and having difficulty coming to terms with her many losses. She returns to La Roseda, shocked and at first angry to see the portrait Truman has anonymously donated to the local gallery. The artist seemed to have captured her pain and grief perfectly, leaving her conflicted. She cultivates a friendship with Paige, owner of the local bed and breakfast where Lillian is staying, and Paige helps to discover the painter's true identity.

Lillian and Truman begin a tentative romance. Lillian is not sure she is ready to give up the memory of her husband, and, even though they are strongly attracted to each other, Truman is not sure she is ready. He leaves to give her space, and Lillian is surprised to discover how much she misses him.

I felt that Lillian's sister, Geena, and their history were interesting, but not fully developed. I did not have much sympathy for Geena, and found her to be self-serving. It was hard to have any kind of sympathy for her. Was she really sorry for how she hurt her sister, was a party to the betrayal as well as the "accident" that claimed Lillian's family, or did she feel sorry for herself because her lover was now dead? I wasn't convinced she was truly remorseful.

I also felt that the suspense of whether or not someone was stalking her was good, but also not fully developed. The climax was kind of confusing. Again, I liked the suspense of wondering about whether or not something sinister was happening, but I did not completely understand when it all came out. This too, I felt was not fully developed.

Having said all that, I still loved the book, and would recommend this author to any of my friends. I love the characters that reside in La Roseda, and would love to "visit" again. I would love to get the chance to know and understand Geena better. Hmm...maybe that is what the author had in mind? :)

Never the Bride by Cheryl McKay and Rene Gutteridge

2009-09-28T15:26:00.000-07:00

Never the Bride by Cheryl McKay and Rene Gutteridge

Published by Waterbrook Multnomah Publishing Group

I originally picked up this book because of Rene Gutteridge. I have read all of her books, and I know that it seems like I always say this, but she is one of my favorite authors. Her books are wonderfully different, always a great plot. I would not have picked up this book by looking at the cover. But, seeing her name on the cover as one of the authors, I decided to bite.

And boy, am I glad I did! I found this book to be a pure delight! I should have known better. I absolutely loved this book. I found the character of Jessie Stone very real and enjoyable. All I am going to say about the plot is....well done.

I usually prefer suspense or mystery, but I have to make a confession: I LOVE chick lit. And I would put this book in that category. Chick lit with a meaningful message.

Because of the discussions regarding new FTC rules, I want to disclose the following:

I reviewed this book on my own. I did not receive a free copy or compensation from anyone.

Seaside Letters A Nantucket Love Story by Denise Hunter

2009-09-24T08:55:00.000-07:00

Seaside Letters
A Nantucket Love Story
by Denise Hunter

Published by Thomas Nelson

www.brb.thomasnelson.com

I was so excited to see this book on the list of books available to review from the Thomas Nelson Book Review Bloggers website. Denise Hunter is one of my favorite authors. I'll put it this way: I have bookcases throughout my home, but only one for my FAVORITE authors and books. My husband knows that this particular bookcase is OFF LIMITS for anyone wishing to borrow one of my legions of books. I have a shelf for each author, and will NOT part with these books. Denise Hunter's collection is on the second shelf. It is an honor and a privilege to be able to review this book, and to add it to my collection. :)

Sabrina Kincaid is a waitress at the Cobblestone Cafe. She serves coffee every morning to the regular customers, including Tucker McCabe. But she is more than just a waitress, and he is more than just a regular customer. They have been corresponding to each other via the Internet under the screen names Sweetpea (Sabrina) and Harbormaster (Tucker). The online friendship has evolved into each having strong feelings for the other. Sabrina opens her heart to Tucker through the safety and anonymity of the emails.

Sabrina is dealing with issues of fear, insecurity (not feeling like she is pretty or good enough for Tucker), hurt from past betrayals, as well as shame from a bad decision made in the midst of a painful time in her life. She is hiding out on Nantucket Island after running from a painful betrayal by her fiance and cousin. She is avoiding dealing with her past. When she learns that Tucker would be affected by her past mistake, she goes to elaborate lengths to hide her true identity, further shutting him out of her future.

What she does not realize is that he knows who she really is, and is reaching out to her. He goes to elaborate lengths to reach out to her, to draw him to her, and to help her feel safe in revealing her true self. Unfortunately, Sabrina's fear of his finding out her past indiscretion is stronger, and she continues to hide.

I don't want to reveal any more of the plot than I already have, but I was deeply touched by this book. I loved how Denise used Tucker's love for Sabrina to illustrate God's love for us. The issue with more than one of the characters dealing with fear was powerful as well. Fear really does paralyze us, stops us from doing and being who God created us to be. Last, but not least, there is the theme of forgiveness. God's forgiveness, forgiving others, and forgiving ourselves. I think we all can use the reminder that one mistake does not define who you are, and if God can forgive us and remember our sins no more, than we can forgive ourselves and others.

I would recommend this book to all of my reader friends. If you have not read any of Denise Hunter's books, I highly recommend starting with Mending Places, book one of the New Heights Series. I promise you will not be disappointed!

The American Patriot's Bible

2009-09-16T06:31:00.000-07:00

This is my review of The American Patriot's Bible, The Word of God and the Shaping of America, published by Thomas Nelson Publishers. This bible is presented in the New King James version, and is considered a Study Bible. According to the back cover, this Bible "connects the teachings of the Bible, the history of the United States, and the life of every American. Beautiful full-color insert pages spotlight the people and events that demonstrate the godly qualities that have made America great."

This was to be the first bible I was to review for the Thomas Nelson Book Review Bloggers site. It was exciting to have UPS stop at my door and deliver this Bible to me! I could not wait to get started!

My husband and I homeschool our eight-year old son, and we were looking forward to using this Bible in both Bible studies with Nick and as a supplement to his history lessons. My goal this summer was to homeschool Nick right through with no stopping. Unfortunately, my oldest daughter's tragic accident superseded all of our best-laid plans. This review, the entire book review blog, was put on hold. Lauren is still hospitalized, but on the way to recovery. We were able to resart homeschooling in the past few weeks. So, I have made the decision to also restart my dream of reviewing books. Sorry if this is rusty, but here goes:

When we initially received The American Patriot's Bible, we sat down and went through the pages. We read several of the inserts, and were amazed and impressed that there is much of our American history that WE do not know! We read with Nick the color insert on Christianity and Equal Rights, located in the beginning of the book of John. We were satisfied that it helped to illuminate that, even though our country was built on liberty and justice for all, certain minority groups have not always enjoyed their rights as American citizens. We thought this insert was timely, having recently inaugurated the country's first black president. We thought the information was both timely and relevant to what is going on right now. We also reviewed the book of John, and emphasized with him the article on the Bill of Rights on page 1217. He is only considered a second grader, but I don't think one is ever too young to learn about the history of this country. We also liked the short blurbs scattered throughout each chapter. On page 1208, titled, Selfless, we read a quote from Colin Powell about our young men and women fighting for freedom in other countries, tying this quote with John 3:16.

We are very impressed with The American Patriot's Bible and would recommend it to anyone homeschooling, or just hungry for more knowledge of American History. I know that we have learned just as much as Nick has!

Available in both hardcover and blue bonded leather.

www.brb.thomasnelson.com

How I Spent My Summer....

2009-09-08T15:48:00.000-07:00

I started this blog in May, so excited to discover that Thomas Nelson publishers would send me (FOR FREE!!!) select books to review. I had always wanted to be an author when I was young, and even though I enjoy reading so much more, I thought this would be a way to polish my writing skills. I will NOT be writing any novels ANYTIME soon, just want to make that clear. My passion is reading, reading, reading.

In June, life as we know it was forever changed. My oldest daughter, Lauren, was a passenger on a Harley Davidson that was struck by an SUV. Her boyfriend (the driver) was thrown from the bike and died instantly. Lauren was pinned under the Harley, which exploded on impact. She suffered full-thickness burns to 40% of her body, and her left leg was amputated mid-calf upon impact. In fact, the left side of her body was badly broken. Her injuries are too numerous to list right now. She was lifelined to one hospital, then transferred the next day to the Richard Fairbanks burn unit in Wishard Hospital due to the extent of her burns. She remains there today. In fact, she was to transfer to the rehabilitation hospital this week, but for insurance and medical reasons, she was told she will be there at least three more weeks. But I am getting ahead of the story.

Her prognosis was grim. She had so many injuries, and each one was critical on its own. For about five weeks, we lived from day to day. She has had so many surgeries I lost count after #10.

Despite all the obstacles, Lauren has survived. I give all the glory to the Lord! She is a miracle! She has a long, hard road ahead of her, but she is going to make it. She is neurologically intact, thank God, so when she is rehabilitated she can come home to her two little girls.

Throughout all of this I forgot all about my vow to become a book reviewer. I had not returned to this blog until this afternoon to post the review for the Max Lucado book, Fearless. I have spent what little computer time I get anymore to post entries on Lauren's Caring Bridge website.

Having returned, I discovered that I missed opportunities to review books I would have loved to review. I started this blog for me, never thought anyone would actually read this!

So, I am making a vow to spend more time doing what I orginally set out to do.

Book Review: Fearless by Max Lucado

2009-09-08T10:02:00.000-07:00

"Each sunrise seems to bring fresh reasons for fear."

"Can you imagine your life without fear?"

-Direct quotes taken from back cover of book.

I requested Max Lucado's new release, Fearless, with a mixture of skepticism and hope. This summer has been a particularly rough summer for me and my family. I have had many reasons to be fearful. Plus, working at a Christian book store for the last three years, I have witnessed many new releases claiming to have the answer to life's problems. I DO enjoy Max's writing style, and figured, if anyone is going to teach us how to conquer fear, why not Max? So, I requested a copy of this book.

I found Fearless to be informative, reassuring, and touched my heart in several chapters. Easy to read, yet not a light read. Max has a way of drawing you in, and targeting the core of our fears. He covered the gamut of our personal fears in fifteen chapters.

Chapter one opens the book with the story of Max's brother, Dee, who passed away from a massive heart attack while Max was writing Fearless. He also defines fear as well as explains how Jesus conquered fear, once and for all, on the cross. The following fourteen chapters define individual fears, and how Jesus specifically addressed each one. He first addressed fears related to our personal shortcomings, such as, fear of not mattering and fear of disappointing God.

Fireflies in December

2009-05-19T06:10:00.000-07:00

Fireflies in December by Jennifer Erin Valent

Jerry B. Jenkins Christian Writers Guild Operation First Novel Winner 2007

Publisher: Tyndale Fiction

http://www.tyndale.com/products/fiction/details.asp?isbn=978-1-4143-2432-6&subpage=

I orginally read this book out of duty, as it was the monthly selection in the book club I attend. I was immediately hooked! I could not and did not want to stop reading this book until I saw the story through to its end.

Jessalyn Lassiter is a thirteen year old girl whose life is turned upside down in the summer of 1932. Her best friend, Gemma, loses her parents in a house fire. Jessalyn's parents take her in, vowing to raise her as their own after a promise Jessalyn's father made to Gemma's father. This stirs up the small community of Calloway, as Gemma is black. The Lassiters endure the disapproval of the townspeople. The family comes under the scrutiny of the local Klu Klux Klan, who terrorizes the family with bullying and threats of violence that seem to escalate over time.

There is a wonderful contrast in this novel of darkness and light, having nothing to do with skin color, rather the darkness or light in the hearts of the characters. Amongst the hatred and ignorance, there are characters that exude love, acceptance, and compassion. This book reminded me that love is and always will be more powerful than hate, and will always ultimately prevail.

This is also a coming-of-age novel for the main character, as she faces for the very first time the sweet pain of unrequited love, her first crush. She also comes to realize that the truth is not all that it seems, and sometimes good people make bad choices.

It is my understanding that the sequel to this novel will be out in September of 2009, titled Cottonwood Whispers. I cannot wait to read Cottonwood Whispers. To all my loved ones: my birthday just happens to be in that very same month....hint, hint.

Book Review: The Noticer by Andy Andrews

2009-05-14T16:56:00.001-07:00

The Noticer
Sometimes, All A Person Needs Is A Little Perspective
by Andy Andrews
Thomas Nelson, Publisher

This book is the story involving a character, named Jones, not Mr. Jones, just Jones, who manages to appear in the lives of those who seem to need him the most.

Beginning with the story of Andy, the narrator of this story, who, as a young man was adrift in life with no direction. Jones appears and waves his magic wand of perspective, and sets Andy on the proper course. Jones seems to disappear after Andy begins to take hold of the advice given him.

More than twenty years later, Jones mysteriously reappears, this time to come to the aid of a married couple at a crossroads in their marriage. Joan feels unloved, and Barry feels unappreciated. Jones once again waves his magic wand of perspective, aka the five love languages (caught ya!) and the marriage is saved.

Jones then appears to a self-professed worrier named Walker Miles (cute), who has lost much because he has spent most of his life worrying about what could happen rather than actually living out his purpose. Jones' answer for this fellow is to daily jot down things he is grateful for, a grateful journal, so that he will dwell on the definite positives rather than the negatives.

He then speaks with a group of young people about using wisdom when making the lifetime choice of choosing your mate, all good advice. Next, he appears to an older woman who feels she is no longer useful to society. Jones wisely advises her that it is never too late, nor are you ever too old to make a difference.

One of the last people Jones appears to is a man named Henry Warren, a workaholic with a reputation for cutting corners and not keeping his word. Jones imparts the wisdom of being a man of integrity, compassion, and the importance of the people around you.

The story comes full circle with Jones meeting a young man living under the pier, just as Andy was over twenty years ago. Andy is with Jones on this venture, and watches as Jones once again works his magic.

Jones then disappears from Orange Beach, Alabama, leaving the residents forever changed with the gift of a new perspective.

I enjoyed reading this book. I was reminded of Mitch Albom's writing style. However, I cannot give this book a five-star rating. Why? I was left a bit dry, felt the book was missing something. God, maybe? I am pretty open-minded, but I felt that, since Thomas Nelson was the publisher, that there would be a little more meat. Great advice, the story flowed well, but I just felt incomplete after reading. Was Jones an angel? I pictured Michael Landon smirking behind an old man's facade. The story reminded me of one of his productions.

http://www.thomasnelson.com/consumer/product_detail.asp?sku=0785229213

http://www.thenoticerproject.com/

Introduction

2009-05-10T09:00:00.000-07:00

Happy Mother's Day! I will make this short, since I am just starting out. My name is Denise, and I am an avid bookreader. I work part-time at a Christian book store, but my main "job" is my family. My reason for creating this blog is partly to express myself before, during, or after my favorite passion, READING! I try to read at least one book a day. I am ridiculous. I read while cooking, eating, waiting at stop lights....you name it.

My memory has never really been that great, so.....last year I decided to start a list of all books I have read so that I will not choose the same one twice. Over the past year, I began to put a little note beside the books I had strong feelings for, both positive and negative. This is my attempt to take that one step further. I would love to share the books that have impacted me, even if I am the only one who is reading this. I do also recommend books that have impacted me to customers at my job, but I am limited to what I can say. So here I have free reign!!!!!

Today I am reading "Every Now and Then" by Karen Kingsbury. I will review when I am done. Yesterday I read the most refreshing book called " Tender Grace" by Jackina Clark. I loved it! The book flowed so well. I felt privileged to experience Audrey's healing journey, and thought it was pretty cool that I had visited some of the same places she described. Would definitely recommend this book!